not too sure what to say or what to think right now…

it has been a long time since my last post… so much to say, but most of it could not be translated into words…

I just downloaded a voice recognition software, installed it into my PC and now I’m using Avaya headset to type in this entry… quite hard because of the slang issue… not sure whether I am using British English or Malaysian English which is also known as Manglish..

Raya 2009 has passed, Deepavali has passed, and now just prepare for weddings that will be held before the new year… speaking of raya, a good friend of mine got married right after raya, and because of that event, I met a person who was and still the one I look up high since the day I met her… it has been a long time since our last meeting, I think it was about two years ago, on her birthday eve… I feel very grateful, really happy, really astonished with her appearance since I was really longing to see her again…she does not changed at all, despite of what she said previously… two years passed and she seems did not age at all… still beautiful and graceful as the way I remembered her… who is she? I don’t know as I don’t have the correct and precise answer for the question… I feel very close to her but I think it is only in my mind… enough of that…

now, I am still under training for HSBB shit… the future seems to be quite blurred by the uncertainty of the path for us to pursue in the near time… not to sure whether the training provided ever since is really helping in order to perform in the middle of November this year… felt like something is wrong somewhere, but don’t know where to point to… but it is quite okay because the food is provided daily, from morning to the afternoon… but one thing I don’t like is to drive early in the morning through the traffic jams in order to get to the training facility… but what to do, I am getting paid to drive there… quite nice… like Faizal said, he is going to miss the free meal provided during the training… and I don’t think he is not alone… I’ll pretty much feel the same way to…

not too sure of the future for the time being… but one thing I hope that life would be better despite of the uncertainty… I have been living alone for a year already… some people say that I am outcasting myself… quite like the life of a hermit… no matter what they say, I feel quite in peace with my life now although some significant others are begging to differ… so help me God…